I can’t believe it. In 10 days, I’ll be leaving Ohio for good. (In case you haven’t heard, the Air Force is sending us to New Mexico!) It still doesn’t feel real; I think a huge part of that is coming from the fact that we’ve never stepped foot in New Mexico before. Isn’t it crazy that we move next week and we still don’t have a place to live? (That’ll be changing this week, fingers crossed.)
As this chapter of my life comes to a close, I’ve been reflecting on my time in Dayton, Ohio. I hated Dayton from the start. After moving here nearly two years ago, I quickly began counting down the days until our next move.
In order to cope, I began to view this stage of my life as temporary. This was such a negative thing for me to do, and it really stopped me from completely living during my time here. It’s like I lost my sense of drive while I was here; at times, I didn’t recognize my typically motivated self. There’s a quote that says, “Wherever you are, be all there.” Instead of taking that advice, I often found myself wishing to be anywhere but here. It makes me sad to think about how much I let anger and disappointment consume me.
There’s a quote that says, “Wherever you are, be all there.” Instead of taking that advice, I often found myself wishing to be anywhere but here. I’d picture myself in LA, where I prayed we’d be stationed next, or I’d picture myself in Wisconsin after our time with the military has expired. It makes me sad to think about how much I let anger and disappointment control my mind.
Maybe it’s a good thing that I have very few expectations about Albuquerque. That way, I can’t picture myself there or be let down by my daydreams. New Mexico won’t be tarnished by fabrications of my mind. Instead, I’ll simply show up and adapt to whatever I find.
Though Dayton wasn’t my favorite place to be, there are some things I’ll miss about it:
- The changing of seasons – especially from summer to fall
- Green. Green grass. Green trees. Green.
- Being a 6-hour drive from my hometown
- The hint of Midwestern values
- Ice cream at Young’s
- Our quiet & safe little corner of town
- Wandering around Yellow Springs
- Hiking in the park
- The friends I’ve made here
Here’s to new beginnings, fresh starts, and stronger hearts.